Nostalgic - 18 months later

Its been almost 18 months since I wrote my last entry here. It has something to do with my marriage. I write not for the sake of writing but only when I get passionate about an idea or thing. Now that doesnt mean that I didnt get passionate about anything apart from my marriage but somehow writing it here became very heavy.

Today, I felt like writing something for the sake of writing probably or the nostalgia brought me to write here. I dont have anything specific to write so will just scribble whatever comes to my mind, more so when I think of the years of maarige.

I have found one thing in marriage, you have to be open in the relationship, and when I say open, i mean so open that you can call each other names, shout, cry and love anyway u want without giving a single thought of how your partner will take it , weather it will be appropriate or not. Marriage, I can say confidently , can be really "2 bodies, 1 soul". If this feeling comes from deep within, then you will rock in your marrige. Apart from this, you need to be both stupid and smart. It helps you both open up better at different times and explore much more than keeping only one kind of attitude. Be childish sometimes, you will open up some things which were never experienced by you or your partner before. Be nasty and be passionate , helps you explore a very different side of your partner which can again lead to a more matured and strong relationship by covering all aspects of your life. I guess thats what I have learnt in last 2 years or so.

Now, on the professional front. I am a dreamer, always thoughts in my mind about business. But I have some middle class insecurity which doesnt let me independent in my actions. But one thing was clear from quite a number of years, I wanted to move out of the "talking to the computer" life and bring more human touch to my professional life. Hence I moved to presales. Not that I am disconnected to computers, but I have much more human touch to my work. My brain can think of limitless possibilities of improving the business aspect of my firms ( ofcourse within their framework). I am coming closer to my aspiration of starting my own business. I am trying to improve my communication skills, my understanding of what all it takes to create a successful business plan , both in paper and in real. What business I will do is not concrete yet, but yes something should start soon.

On my psychological front, it has been a very poor year. Not much to think about. My marriage, a few friends around was all I had to think about. Couldn't read many books, which I have collected but have not gone beyond the preface. My Dostoevsky books are still open and I look forward to reading some of them soon.

These are few of the thoughts I had on my life in last 18 months. I am looking forward to this 2010 very eagerly as there are some really big events I am expecting in my life. Well, we all have expectation and wishes. Let God decide which ones are in for me this year.

Have a merry x mas and wonderful and exciting new year, all.