Am I Drunk !! ( Adult Content)

I dont know if Iam druk and writitng this shit or have my sense really transcdended beyond a level, where I dont have to care for mundane things to write about.Like is a peice of shit ,which one has to keep touching everyday , even when he hates i the most.I dont understand god's philosphy , even when 99% of ppl r unhappy for something or the pother , he still keeps sending life donw there , as if he is not having much fun still. Nobody is haooy , nobody is fucking happy , somebody has some personal problem , somebody has work problm , somebody has society problem ( enuchs !!) or somebody has the problem wiht the life in general. Nobody is happpy , everybody is running for something or the other without knowing where it will lead to.Why the heck r we fucking our ass left right center bwhen we dont know where we r going to. Right now , I am feeling so angry so fucked up wth this world tat i want pink flod to rescue me, i listen to his "comportably nu, mb" , i want to get comfortably numb , but i need to get high in order to get to this state. I dont understand where this fuking life is leading me to. Ypu have no motivation to go on. Your vompnay screws ur as with al the fucking rating, CRR, banding , as if u r nothing much than a cock who is fighting wih anothet cock and if u will , u will get a good reward , else u wld be served in the dinner. Wy the fucking hell has money become so damm important tht ppl recognise each other with this stuff. Why am i not in a nomadic civilisation , i dont want to porgress at this level , where i have to curb my raw emtions behind the face of society , i wanna be raw a, a raw creature , who do whtever he wants any time , and if reqd fight and settles the matter. I watch nat Geo and feel why i am not one of those creatures who lives life so open and still have a steady society. This fucking naked ape , the human , has got a life which is far more miserable than other. Reminds me of "The naked ape" by desmond morris , who explaing tht this current society is nothing more than a laywer to cover for our nakedness , our naked and stark desiers which our other earthy creatures exhibit , but he has find convenicence in getting the things under carpet and shwoing a false face/

How long can u survive like that ????

Did u ever felt like shout aloud , when u felt very happy and contended urself with sending a soft moan or at max , banging ur table , and its all coz ur society doesnt permit u to be so loud , what a fucking society which does nt let out ur emotions , for the sake of manitaing a decoram. I wanna shout loud , sing loud, so what if my voice s pathetic , i wanna live a free like , which knows no bounds , ad not in some place where everything is so manipulaitve and caluculative that u knw , whta person is gok na speak and do.

this world hae only given missers to the moajotory, so many pppl pray at any given day that they shld seiqe to exist now, tht they shld not see the next moment of life, still they continue to live for yrs altogether to face the trayma and sickness every coming moment. Get reloived and go high , transcend beyond this mundane earth and see the outer world, it has much peace and order, it has tranquality and confort wchih will keep you alive and kicking , but only in ur dreams , Coz the rea mworld is ver scary. You stand alone in this world as you keep fighti gfor ur dreams and goals but everytime to analyse ur dreams , u find that they r playing a cat and mouse race with u. u get sick of all this , whyc the heck am i still living and seeing this shit happeneing to me everydaya and every moment. Why doesnt life seem to exist, why doesnt thos world sleep forever as i am feeling sleepy and how i wish i never wake uo to another fucking mornng.